I am so sorry for your loss of Atos, what a great picture. I lost my Prince 12/21/08 it is almost a year and I still cry. He was 16 years old he was having seizures and could hardly walk I had to put him down and I was with him crying my eyes out. I found the chat line on here and they are just wonderful people they have helped me through this year. I know just how you are feeling why not try the chat room it is on everynight starting at 9PM and weekends at 10PM.